God…..I was waiting so long for that. What a great night!
1. I made tons of money at work tonight, and I won a contest yayy for prickly pear margaritas lol!
2. I saw some old friends I haven’t hung out with in months….they looked great and we had a blast! <3
3. Danced my ass off and had a smile the entire night….someone was looking very cute too nod nod. And at the end of the night, something happened that I had only been fantasizing about. That I thought I would continue to merely fantasize about because it was so unattainable. But apparently it wasn’t so far-fetched. My friend Katie was right. And it was so perfect. It was one of those moments that you want to replay over and over in your head. I wouldn’t change a thing about it. I’m still reeling.
There will always be that one person who things went wrong with. That, if you could, you’d go back and change it all. Change what you said; what you did. But as much as we want to go back; as much as we want that person back in our lives, it’ll never happen.
I really don’t understand why this always happens to me. I meet somebody seemingly amazing. They’re attentive, funny, smart, and they like talking to me. They are always around and always want to hang out with me and I’m on their mind constantly. Sparks fly. We have our first kiss and it’s magical. We grow closer. It seems like the whole world was made for us. And then, out of nowhere, nothing. No sightings. No texts or calls. Nothing. At. All. They drop off the face of the planet. Why? Am I defective? Is there something wrong with me? I’m so tired of this shit. I don’t think I want to be in a relationship ever again. I don’t want to be hurt like this anymore. I almost don’t even want to have feelings. It hurts too much.